Ummm...

How do you find the balance between being selfish and needs being fulfilled?

I can never tell...am I being selfish or is this a legitimate need? I feel frustrated. I don't need the world on a silver platter that's for sure. Actually, I would never want it. It would be nice however to receive an act of service, phone call, note, present or something without having to ask for it...or say I feel "unloved." Love is not about keeping a tally of who does what..when. Sometimes however I get exhausted doing things for someone else and nothing in return. At the most I ask for a listening ear...reciprocation. Saying all of this now makes me feel like a selfish, ungrateful, unloving person.

I don't have it figured out. I'm not good at this. People say it's not about us but God working through us. I don't know how to do that! Is there a manual or something?

I guess I should probably not give if I'm expecting something in return. It all comes back to my own intentions and actions. Why am I doing what I'm doing? And believe me I fail others all the time...I'm sorry.

I don't want to wear the pants. I want to be a woman but frankly that sucks...and it's really hard to do sometimes. Be giving, caring, loving and ask for nothing in return but don't get walked on. What is that about? Sometimes I just want to quit this woman stuff.

How are the men going to understand if I don't even understand?