I love my Joely

I love this man so much. He is my protector, caregiver, best friend, laughing partner, and love of my life. God new exactly what I wanted when He brought Joel into my life. I am going to stink at times showing Joel how much I respect and love him but I am going to try my very best.

Joely I love you. Most of all I respect who you are and how hard you work in all things.

Love,

Your little lady

Customer Service

I am not cut out for this...whole customer service thing. Sometimes I really wonder what in the world am I doing working at a job that's primary skill is customer service when I stink at it! I really do...people can be so rude, awkward, loud, mean, hyper, talkative and I can't handle it. I get so tense talking to people on the phone...it makes me really cranky, grit my teeth, stomach churning, I become feeling shy. I don't think customer service is my fortay...but I'm also not sure what is?

A word to those ordering any sort of service of product...be nice to the person on the other end of the phone. If you don't like talking to them...they are not going to like talking to you. I have had very few great experiences on the phone at work. Some people (usually always women) have asked if they could pray for me by name...and asked for my name. I've had some people pray for me right there over the phone. Others have said that I do a great job and appreciate what I do. It makes the biggest difference!

I guess that's why we can't put our feelings and faith in other people...they will let us down. God calls us to be servants even to complete strangers....that is really HARD. I need His help.

Florida is the land of Magic

Florida...

I went and visited Amy (Joel's sister) in Florida the first week of July. Amy works for the wonderful world of Disney so she was my very own tour guide! She got me in for free and taught me everything I know about Disney. I had never been to Disney World before...my family always goes to Colorado on vacation. Here are some pictures from my amazing time with my dear friend almost sister (as we like to say) Amy. She convinced me that I could consider living in Florida...I love it!

Moving...

I've decided moving is for the birds...literally. It is so exhausting to be moving all the time. I thought I would be living where I am for another year but I don't think that will be the case. It's time for Cali and I to decide what to do next for living situations and it's no fun!

As tiring as moving is...the one part I look forward to is a fun new place to decorate!

I know it will all work out for the best. It just tires me out to think of moving again. If I am counting correctly I have moved 18 times in my life! I might have missed a couple of times. And I'm sure I will move even more times after this...

Where will I live next?

Contentment

For the Bible Study that I am in we decided for the summer to take one main thing in our lives and pray for it continuesly. I decided on contentment. Contentment is very difficult for me. There were years that I thought I was content but I think I had the wrong defintion of the word. Through my prayers and struggle with contentment, conversation with softball ladies and family I realized something about all of us.

If we are a kid we want to be a teenager...
If we are a teenager we want to be an adult...
If we are an adult we want to be retired...
If we are single we want to be engaged...
If we are engaged we want to be married...
If we are married we want to have kids...
If we have kids we are ready for them to move out...
If they move out we want them back...
If we have a car we want a truck...
If we have bread we want jelly...
If we have bread & jelly we want peanut butter...

We always...always want more...
Why can't we be okay or even happy with where we are? This is so difficult for me. Why is it so hard...my life is not hard...not hard compared to so many other people in this world. I need to be content. Help me Lord to be content.

Here we go...

I have been avoiding starting this blog...not sure why. Probably because I am afraid of what I might write...maybe make a mistake or say something I shouldn't.

First topic: You are not a social person.

I was told this weekend that I am anti-social or can be...I was really hurt. And almost bitter. Okay, I was bitter. Then I had to take a deep breath and figure out why I was so upset. I am upset because deep down that is one of my constant ever nagging fears. Is what people think of me, that they have summed me up in a moment. I let my fear of what others think control my time with other people...it's easier to hide from people than to try and face them and my thoughts of what they might think of me. Ridiculous I know but it is how I've let myself be lied to.

My anti-social...running away...is something that I do not want to face or work on but I know it's the only way I can try to change. I pray for grace...to change.

Also through this comment of hearing that I am anti-social that it is really hard for me to accept when people are honest with me. I do not want to hear that. And I am going to be hurt and play the victim...because I am the victim you have called me something that I am and I am hurt! Once again...ridiculous. I hate this human thing sometimes. Nothing sounds better sometimes than wanting to give up. Throw in the towel and quite at being human. Is that possible? Does God have a get out of humanness card? I wish.

Learning the yucky, black things about yourself is never fun. I really do not like these times...it makes my stomach churn and feel yucky, gives me a headache and makes me plain ole' crabby. I am not called to be these things. I pray that I could be a better example of what Christ actually calls us to be.

I wonder if anyone else in this world really feels as ridiculous and emotional as I do? A lot of times I think it's completely impossible for anyone to be as emotional as I am.